SARAH LAKULAH NGASSA SINJU

Dear AntySarah,
We called you all sorts; sister, mami, aunty, mama gentille
Rest in Peace. Ididn't believe when mami called to say you were no more.....
Lynet had said you were not too well but that you recovered fully.
I tried to get in touch with Var to no avail.
You were beautiful and kind, you will not see Mbamba and not squeeze some notes in her hand.
Weh sister, you could still go on..... I won't question God
Your willingness to pass on your coking skills...my salad teacher.
You had too much bereavement in recent years, we had a lengthydiscussion 
after one morning mass, you were very tearful..... Hope you are taking care of
your loved ones beyond.
Sleep well sister.
A loving mother who doted on her children. Cooked, made sure they were ok in every way
My condolences to sis Dorothy, Hankou, Arnold n Var. And the grand children.
Be strong coz I can imagine how hard it's been.  
Courage and just hold on to the loving memories which I know are plen
Anty, Adieu till we meet again........ 

Thoughts and Prayers  

Enjema.  

My condolences. It is my hope that these words of the Holy Scriptures, prove to be supportive in this difficult and painful time…..

John 11:32-45

32 And so Mary, when she arrived where Jesus was and caught sight of him, fell at his feet, saying to him: “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” 33 Jesus, therefore, when he saw her weeping and the Jews that came with her weeping, groaned in the spirit and became troubled; 34 and he said: “Where have YOU laid him?” They said to him: “Lord, come and see.” 35 Jesus gave way to tears. 36 Therefore the Jews began to say: “See, what affection he used to have for him!” 37 But some of them said: “Was not this [man] that opened the eyes of the blind man able to prevent this one from dying?”

38 Hence Jesus, after groaning again within himself, came to the memorial tomb. It was, in fact, a cave, and a stone was lying against it.39 Jesus said: “TAKE the stone away.” Martha, the sister of the deceased, said to him: “Lord, by now he must smell, for it is four days.”40 Jesus said to her: “Did I not tell you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?” 41 Therefore they took the stone away. Now Jesus raised his eyes heavenward and said: “Father, I thank you that you have heard me. 42 True, I knew that you always hear me; but on account of the crowd standing around I spoke, in order that they might believe that you sent me forth.” 43 And when he had said these things, he cried out with a loud voice: “Laz´a·rus, come on out!” 44The [man] that had been dead came out with his feet and hands bound with wrappings, and his countenance was bound about with a cloth. Jesus said to them: “Loose him and let him go.”

45 Therefore many of the Jews that had come to Mary and that beheld what he did put faith in him;

Please go to the following link for more information regarding the Hope expressed in this passage

http://www.jw.org

Sister,

Today as you lie here motionless I am still in denial that you’ve left me alone. I want to assure you, Sister that I have chosen hope over fear and despairs. The Lord God is gracious and could not have called you if he did not have another important mission for you.

Life is on loan to me as you and rest of the family have left me behind all alone, the only thing I can hold on to are the moments. One by one Papa, Mami, Dr P C Ngassa, Mary, Charles, Susan, Michael, Terence and now you living me alone with all these responsibilities to handle. How am I supposed to on alone deal with all these challenges and lead our family alone, your kids, grandchildren and late brother’s children? You were my rock and support that I always turn to and lean on after brother left us two alone and now you are gone. You were more than just a sister and you knew that, you were my best friend and mom. I maybe living in the U.S. but I felt like I was living in Tiko with you because you kept me vividly posted on everything going on as if I was there, you were my messenger on all the play by play happening in Tiko during our often weekly phone conversations and now you are gone. Even as your health began to deteriorate and your voice hard to hear you continue to give me word of encouragement to stay strong when I should be the one encouraging you that’s how loving and caring a sister you were. The truth about your sudden demise is traumatizing, moving on without you now is not going to be easy.  The old wounds has yet to heal and now you, I am alone now no brothers no sisters and orphan  bye bye sister I shall overcome your lose too with the Lord’s guidance and blessings for that’s all I have left now. So much memories and moments is all I have left to hold on too to keep me moving forward…I am who I am today because of you. I personally admired the dynamism and commitment manifested by you and your late husband Mr Paul Sinju on me to give me a head start in becoming the man I’ve become, I say go rest in peace and remain blessed in the bosom of the Lord you served so well as you join your husband and the rest of the family. Thank you sister for all the memories and all you were able to do here on earth during your rather short stay of 64 years. I will continue to pray for you and the other family members you are now joining. It is not death that I am afraid of living now without you is what I am afraid of. I will continue to fulfilled my role as Papa’s success to lead and be the best example I can be for the children you and brother left behind, so worry not and rest in peace. With God’s guidance I can do all things, I know I will never be challenge any more than I can handle…I know God will strengthen me, guide me in your absents I have faith. If God in for us who can be against us? I fear no human being because my spirit belongs to the Almighty, he is my comforter, guidance and my protector.  I have his reassurance of his presence in my life in your absents so worry not, he will help me meet the challenges of each day so I rest in his provision for I know that he is leading…I have an inner peace it does not really matters what life throws at me.

My sons Terence & Donovan and I wish you farewell till we meet again sister. I know Papa, Mami, Doctor, Mary, Charles, Susan, Michael, Terrence and your husband  will there in welcoming you as you join them in the Lord’s kingdom. I ask you all to continue praying for me and those you’ve left behind for strength, courage and guidance I we embark on living life without you around anymore.  You may be gone in physical body but we are still together in spirit. May Eternal Rest be granted unto you. I love you and will always love you sister.

 

Your beloved brother,

Joseph F Ngassa

Grand Ma, you were the best Grand Ma in the whole wide world. You were always happy to hear my voice. You always asked how I was and took care of me I’m sad I’ll never talk to you again. Our time together was short and wonderful. I will miss you. I love you forever.

Your loving grandson

Kyle Ngomba

On the night I received a phone call and my sister crying hysterically, I knew something was wrong. I thought my world was coming to an end. I never envisioned living my life without you. Words cannot describe how much I miss you Mami. You were my rock, my friend, my mother and my confidant. The biggest heartbreak of all is we never said goodbye, you were gone before I knew it. God saw that the road was getting tough and you’ve suffered enough even though in the human eye we all thought you were getting better. I was not there to hear your last breath, last words or even to hold your hand as you make your final journey but I know God was there for you, he did send an Angel to guide you through. I know papa, Terence, Aunty Susan, Uncle Pius, Uncle Charles, grand ma and pa were there to welcome you. Let them all know I’m doing fine and I’ll do my ultimate best to live the rest of my life as a God fearing person. If you still have a mother, please cherish her with care ‘cause it only really hits you when you turn and she’s not there. I often will call you and you were concerned about me and your grand kids. You were always there for me as a mother, whenever I needed to talk, you were there, when I needed help, you were also there for my kids as well. Worry no more Mami because I will raise them up as God fearing children and do the best I can. You took care of them, fed them, gave them cloths and above all, love.  I love you mami and you were the best mom I could ever asked for. You died at the age of 64 when you should have been at your best. God saw your pain and suffering and said you needed rest. I think of you a lot, you’re always in my prayer. I know you’re looking down on me now. Right now it’s really hard to accept you’re gone. I still call your phone number; I still hear your voice over and over in my head thinking you’re just across the ocean that if I reach for my phone, you’ll answer. You were a strong woman who had been through quite a lot. If you still have a mother, please give her everything you’ve got. I never got to do that for you Mami and it’s my regret I could’nt do that much. You loved all your kids equally and were always there for each and every one of us. You were a caring mother, was involved in all our life. You cared so much about me yet I couldn’t do much for you. Life as I know now will be a challenged; I have no mother or father. I often asked God why he took you and left me with this loss. So God, if you’re listening tell my mother up above how much I miss her and please give her all my love. Tell her I’ll live well, the sacrifices she has made for me to be a better person, the legacy she left behind, I’ll NEVER forget even though she’s not here with me physically, she’s always in my heart. I’ll love you always forever. May your soul rest in PEACE.

 Your beloved daughter, 

Valerie Sinju.